So, I found out yesterday that I’m way, WAY closer to reaching my top long-term training goal than I thought I was earlier in the week – and I also discovered just how much being sick makes a person appear much weaker than they actually are when they try to perform physical activities at their limit. What crazy mental shifts I’ve undergone in the past week; it’s been a bit of a wild ride to be in the driver’s seat here (which is kind of how I picture all of us, really – we’re these disembodied spirit beings inserted into these flesh machines that we try to mold and push into what we want them to be, but “we,” meaning the conscious drivers, have only a sort of pseudo-control over what happens to the meat-sacks we pilot).
Let me take you back, briefly, to the start of my concerted training efforts. They begin in January of 2008, when I hurt my ankle so badly in a bouldering competition that I couldn’t walk for six weeks before departing for a three-month trip to climb in Kalymnos. It seemed like totally imperfect timing, but in actuality (like so many injuries and other unpleasant life events), it turned out to be an extremely productive and life-changing episode for me. Since I couldn’t climb or run or even walk, this left me with pretty much no choice but to train…and since I had no weights at that point but I did have a hangboard, I simply did pull-ups. I could do a set of eight pull-ups when I started. After only six weeks of this, I was sold on the idea (finally!) of training outside of climbing to make gains in climbing…and so my saga with becoming a training-obsessed climber truly began.
Right then, that’s when I established my longest-term training goal, the training goal that has motivated and pushed me all along. It’s not a climbing goal; I have a huge list of those, too – but one of the great things about training I’ve found is that it’s really fun to set training goals to guide and direct me to stay the course as well. They feed my fire to train, just as training feeds my gains in climbing.
This No. 1 training goal, now four years old, is to do a one-arm pull-up.
Last Wednesday, I was psyched that I could perform a one-arm with 32 pounds off. Kevin has built this cool pulley system that allows me to take weight off down to the pound, figuring out just how much help I need to perform a one arm. My left arm was weaker – I needed 55 pounds off that day to do a one-arm. And I did this workout without bouldering or training in advance; I’d been sick, and I just wanted to work my weaknesses and make sure I hadn’t slipped in strength.
Yesterday – wow! I was recovered from sickness fully, I guess. I bouldered with the guys for two hours, observing aloud to Gabe that one thing I’ve realized more than ever this winter, I think due to how much time we’ve spent sport climbing outside, is that I really do suck at bouldering (relative to my sport climbing ability, of course – I’m not comparing myself to other folks). Yes, I’ve gotten better as I’ve gotten stronger, but somehow, this has just increased my awareness of how far I have to go (of course, regularly bouldering with two guys who are way taller than I am and stronger/more powerful than I am only makes my perception of my own weakness that much more pronounced).
Anyhow, back to the training thing – after we were done bouldering, I suggested that we come inside and figure out how close we were to one-arms (Gabe and me; Kevin can do sets of one-arms with a weight vest on). And that’s when I found out – I only needed a measly 12 pounds of assistance to do a one-arm with my right arm. HOLY SH#$! I was totally shocked and of course, delighted. What an amazing development for me, and how perfectly timed for departure for my Spain trip. (Lefty still lags behind at 30 pounds of assistance; part of this is injury-related, but lefty has always lagged…next goal will be to do one with lefty once I’ve done one with righty, of course).
When stuff like this happens to me in both climbing and in training, when I finally at long last succeed or get so close to a long-term goal that I know it’s going to happen, I feel overwhelmed and completely in awe, every time, that someone like me can put in the time and work and effort and actually see the concrete results. It’s absolutely amazing to me, that I can push this flesh suit with so much physical work and emerge with significant gains. I always feel strangely detached from it; I don’t know how to explain it, but again, it’s like I’m driving this thing and I don’t really have control entirely; I’m just trying my best to navigate through the muddy waters with imperfect radar; all the best training intentions and ideas are still as much of an art as they are a science, because our damnably unpredictable bodies almost never act on cue exactly as we expect or want them to, no matter how perfectly we train them.
And that’s another thing – my training has been less-than-perfect; I’ve stumbled and fallen flat on my face numerous times throughout these past four years, as anyone who’s read this for a while knows. I’ve overtrained, I’ve undertrained, I’ve hurt myself and I’ve trained in silly ways (especially early on in this process). Even know, I feel strange about leaving for Spain, as I realized yesterday that I feel excellent in training right now, like I’m recovered from last year’s difficult training and climbing, and I’m ready to put in another strong training cycle – oops, just in time for leaving for a two-month climbing trip in Europe. I just did two hard strength workouts in the same week, which I could never do before, and I felt better in the second workout in all of my lifts (save squats, and when I realized that I wasn’t recovered enough to do them, I dropped the exercise for the day – this is progression and maturation for me as well, because I used to stubbornly adhere to the plan even when sh#$ was sore, and that’s how I got overtrained; lesson learned).
But, now isn’t the time to train; it’s time for Spain, and I can’t be upset about that, and I’m not. I’m just actually super happy that we didn’t get to climb in the Octagon this week; I needed this mental boost in confidence, this concrete evidence of my physical progression. I couldn’t ask for a better send-off, really.